It was that kind of day

Yesterday I had that great fortune to volunteer at Ethan's field day extravaganza.  And it was, indeed, quite the extravaganza.  I was in charge of the parachute game.  This is the game in which kids gather round the giant parachute and bounce a small kick ball.  I still have scars on my knees from when I was about Ethan's age from just such a game, but that's another story.

As I was setting up with another mom for this game, I looked up over the school building and took in for a moment how amazing the mountains looked.  They were still halfway covered with snow and the sun was coming in through the canyon.  We live in a beautiful place.  At that moment, I felt unbeatable.  Sometimes, all you need is a little clarity.

And that's just what I needed.

I won't be conquered, after all, by feelings of self-doubt.  And I won't be conquered by people's selective beliefs in others truth.  I know what is true, and so do the people who love me and know me.  That's all that matters.  I won't be beaten by changes in plans or changes in heart or the changes in people.  I won't be run over by malicious or thoughtless actions of others, neither will I notice selfish decisions that are made in order to hurt me or my loved ones.  In the end, I know what matters.  As my sweet husband tells me, "We know what is reality.  They live in fantasy." 

I will not be conquered by the "I should have knowns" or the "I should have dones".  And I won't be overtaken by people who take my loyalty for granted. Not anymore. I have sacrificed too much and have gotten too little in return.  It's not like I'm a Pez dispenser, popping out an endless supply of Loyalty, Faith, Trust, Love, and Sacrifice.  

I will not be beaten.  I will not be conquered.  Not overtaken.  Not taken for granted. Not anymore.  Not even a little. 

I live in a beautiful place, and what makes it so beautiful is the people who live with me.  It was that kind of day, just the kind I needed. Yes, indeed.