But things began to change. I had to change what I wrote about because things in our lives began to change. Conflicts arose because a person, a terribly confused person, became too fixated on our family and I began to slowly alter what I wrote about. I had to make my blog private. I hated having to do that. I had to send out special invites for people to access it, these people had to log in to read it. It was tedious. And while I felt more free to write about whatever I wanted to again, I felt like this person had control over us still. So I opened up my blog again.
For awhile it was okay. This person didn't know and I thought that we were in the clear. Soon, though, the obsession with us began again. Through Statcounter.com I was able to track ISP addresses and see the patterns again, the repetitive hits on my blog -- as in 10 or 15 times a day! I began altering my writing again until I didn't want to write anything personal anymore. Soon, my blogging became impersonal, still enjoyable, but more nonfiction essay writing and nothing about us!
My poor in-laws want to see Ethan growing up, they want to know what we're up to. My friends from around the country want to keep up on things in our lives and I don't want to write about anything for fear of this person holding on to any personal information about us.
This is no way to live. I'm taking back some control. I will still keep Streetlight Imagination, but here is our new space,
Welcome to our new home: Streetlights Eternity.

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